I was never

I was never talented enough for what I wanted.
I was never smart enough for myself.
I was never enough to stop him hating me.
I was never enough to make her love me more.
I was never good enough to be who I wanted to be.
I was never good enough for where I wanted to go.
I was never beautiful enough for boys to want me.
I was never talented enough to get the part I wanted.
I was never smart enough to feel confident.
I was never good enough to make him want me.
I was never good enough to make him love me.
I was never enough to make them want to be with me.
I was never good enough to not worry.
I was never talented enough for the job I wanted.
I was never smart enough to not get in his car.
I was never strong enough to put it down.
I was never strong enough to admit when it wasn't working.
I was never strong enough to control my brain.
I was never strong enough to purge.
I was never thin enough for what I wanted.
I was never strong enough to starve.
I was never strong enough to stop eating.
I was never strong enough to put the food down.
I was never thin enough for my goal weight.
I was never small enough for what I wanted.
I was never ill enough for them to treat me.
I was never ill enough for their diagnosis.
I was never thin enough for them to believe me.
I was never thin enough for them to help me.
I was never thin enough to be anorexic.
I was never strong enough to be anorexic.
I was never thin enough for myself.
I was never thin enough.
I was never thin enough.

And that's what hurts the most.